A Heart to Heart & Spring Joys

This must be the wettest Spring in the UK ever says the Hertfordshire girl snapped in Greece above.

I don’t actually mind the rain, I find it relatively calming. However, it’s restricting me a little bit when I really want to go outside for a walk or run.

We are approaching the weekend and I’m currently experiencing an Endo flare up – when will I never not be unwell or in pain?! I’m actually not feeling too exhausted and too spacey from co-codamol, so I thought I’d write. I’d just actually finished writing my “Postcards in Greece” post. I’m on a writing streak for the first time in months!

I’ve had some really lovely moments over the past two months or so, such as, luxury spa days, afternoon tea at The Langham with the mothership, a week in Greece and had lots of lovely walks with my neighbour.

However, I have been struggling internally quite a bit. I’m pretty certain it’s the side effects from the medication I’m on. I feel flat, a little depressed and exhausted. Anyway, the only way to really get me out of this funk is to go to the gym, go for a walk, or see people close to me. Otherwise, I’m too shattered to do near enough anything else. Which is ironic as the gym and well, any form of exercise uses a lot of energy. I think it’s because it’s the only activity that involves losing weight and I’m all on board for that, because medication weight gain is something I’ve struggled with for years and I’m trying my absolute best to lose a further two stone. Anyway, it’s proving difficult to lose the weight since being on medication again. So, I just feel constant sadness whenever I weigh myself.

I do feel like this sadness is also connected to me feeling like I’ve lost my identity since giving up my field of work to try for a baby last year. A part of me is still grieving our loss too. I feel like I’m trying to find my mojo and my rhythm with life. Anyway, I’ve contemplated new paths that I could go down, but I just feel uncertain after putting my heart and soul into Digital Marketing for over ten years and just letting it go. Although, my health has been a constant problem for 6 or so years, and the amount of stress and pressure I put on myself in Marketing jobs, as well as the pressure I am put under.

I feel like the sensible option would be part-time work or do something completely new. I’m trying to figure it out. I just know I want my spark and drive back.

I also feel like my social anxiety has crept in again and I’ve become a hermit again who has forgotten how to socialize. Even with friends I’ve known for over ten years. So, I’m trying to do only really really small gatherings for the time being, until my annoyingly awkward phase has gone.

Anyway,

Things that have bought me joy:

Joe and I did a fancy spa day at Sopwell House. I purchased a package during the Black Friday sale last year which included an overnight stay, ‘The Club’ at Cottonmill spa package, £60 per head at Omboo and breakfast. It was nice to relax and rejuvenate. The room was gorgeous, omboo was incredibly delicious and we made use of the spa and gym. Although it would have been a bonus if we could have used the spa most of the following day, it seemed we were a bit rushed with breakfast and check-out.

I also did a solo spa day at the Grove. The massage included in my package was incredible! I had a few swims, went to the gym, relaxed in the sauna and steam rooms and had a lovely lunch. I actually want to go back as it was a lot quieter than Sopwell House. Oh and I met my mum and dad for dinner at The Stables as we’ve never been to that restaurant before, which was really good.

As a belated Mother’s Day treat, I took my mum for Afternoon Tea at The Langham. Super posh! My mum enjoyed herself, as did I. We had a little wander around Regents Park afterwards.
It’s something I want to do more of – have a random London day with my mum every now and again.

I’ve had some delicious meals at my local pub, Gails, Nena Bakery and Hatch.

I’m a big fan of the veggie pies and cheesecake of the day at my local pub. Overnight oats and chai is my go to at Gails when I go for physio. A fave brunch stop in St Albans has to be Hatch. And for cheesey toastie goodness, Nena Bakery is a must.

I saw John Mayer live at long last! He was amazing and it felt like an over 30’s club which was nice.

Joe and I had a random London day out, afternoon tea at The Athenaum, funky cocktails and pizza at Homeslice. We walked most of our food off. So many routes tracked on Strava that day.

I joined the gym a little while ago and as I mentioned above, it’s the only thing that’s truly helping me. I go 2-3 times a week. I’m also training for a 5k ‘Race for Life’ in June. So doing the odd run every now and again too. It’s amazing how something so simple like ‘exercising’ can really boost your mental health.

I should go more than 2-3 times a week, but I have to rely on Joe to get there as I no longer drive. Although I am thinking of renewing my license and taking an automatic course at some point!

Oh and I got my nails done a few weeks ago, need a new set actually! However, loving the colourful design I went for.

Other little joys have been… watching 3 Body Problem, The Office (US) and Gilmore Girls. And making the most of my audible account – I’m currently listening to Prince Harry’s ‘Spare’ book.

Hope you’ve had some lovely little moments in Spring! Catch up soon.

6 Comments

  1. Jillian
    May 5, 2024 / 3:24 am

    Such lovely photos from Greece. You are very fortunate to be able to travel to Greece so easily, it’s a big hike from Australia. However, I just had another 2 weeks in London for a family wedding in April and really enjoyed it. Love ol’ London Town. We went to Circolo Popalare and the Sky Garden, visited Oxford and Harry Potter World , a day trip to Bath, Lacock village annd Avebury and a boat ride on the Thames to Greenwich. (My husband just told me he lived in Harpenden and Wheathamstead Hertfordshire as a child , when his dad worked at Rothamstead research station ) . I hope your health improves xxxx

    • zoey
      Author
      May 8, 2024 / 12:35 pm

      Ah yes, sometimes I forget how close we are to travel to other countries like Greece. Aww that’s lovely. I love Circolo Popalare, Oxford, Bath, Greenwich and Harry Potter World. Haven’t been to the others, but I’ve heard of them. Harpenden isn’t too far away from me!
      Thank you so much. Always lovely to read a comment from you. xxx

  2. May 5, 2024 / 11:07 am

    Reading your post, I can totally relate to the mix of ups and downs spring brings. It’s so inspiring to see you finding joy in the little things despite the challenges. Hang in there. Here’s to brighter days ahead! xx

    Lenne | lennezulkiflly.com

    • zoey
      Author
      May 8, 2024 / 12:43 pm

      It’s been really though at times, but really nice to enjoy the little things. I find going for walks, runs or to the gym helps a huge amount. Thanks lovely. xx

  3. May 16, 2024 / 9:14 pm

    I love your bright manicure! I’m glad that there have been some ups in between the sad days. You deserve happiness, Zoey xx

    Beautylymin

    • zoey
      Author
      May 17, 2024 / 2:09 pm

      Aw thanks so much lovely lady! xx

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