It’s Thursday morning, I’m laying in bed and I’m feeling quite reflective of the past couple of months and years.
My anxiety has got the better part of me most days, especially in the past 3 months… Days where I wouldn’t leave the house and spend all day in my pyjamas mindlessly scrolling through social media and seeing what everyone else is up to (such a bad habit).
However, there would be some days that I would push myself to get dressed and go outside, whether that’s to do a food shop or just to get some fresh air with Joe or my mum. I can’t be a hermit forever is what I say to myself… plus I need to reach 5000-7000 steps as my fake fit bit suggests.
I take medication for my anxiety and it helps a lot, however, I need to overcome it, especially the social anxiety side of things. Sometimes the medication makes it worse – I’d feel quite shaky and restless, and I’d need to tick off 1000 things to my never ending to-do list which stops me from socialising.
Social anxiety has crippled me over the years… some days I can be really sociable, other days I need to alienate and be alone to reflect and write down my thoughts, or listen to some up beat music to put me back into old spirits. Typical INFJ!
I’d be quite content working from home most of the time, but I would miss the social interaction of working in an office – sharing ideas and just being around like-minded people! I’d miss that ‘team work makes the dream work’ mantra.
On more of a positive note, I found out that I’m an Awards Lifestyle Finalist in the UK Blog Awards 2019!! Thank you to everyone who voted for me!
I’m over the moon and feel a little teary that people like the content I produce in my spare time.
My little blog bubble is up for an award in this saturated market, with so many other amazing and talented bloggers. So, thank you to anyone and everyone who voted for me!