When you put yourself out there on the internet, it can be quite tricky to pour out your emotions and open up – to express how you’re really feeling without being afraid of being judged. But it can also be a beautiful thing. To share your experiences, what you’ve been through and to also help others that are battling demons of their own.
You’re also probably wondering why the hell am I sitting in a field smiling, what a weirdo…
Anyway, I haven’t been feeling like ‘myself’ the past year. A lot of things happened. Without going into too much detail, I was involved in a car accident (my car got written off – it was a shit time), my health was at an all time low and a bunch of other things happened that I don’t feel comfortable sharing at this stage. Truth be told – my confidence shattered, I lost hope and I lost trust. I didn’t like who I became. I was continuously anxious, afraid and on the edge. I felt incapable of doing what I actually do best. I was in a really dark place and I felt vulnerable.
The past two months have been a game changer, an eye opener and I finally feel like I’m myself again. I spoke to someone about everything that had happened and I felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders (that person knows who they are, so thank you for listening and helping me, I will forever appreciate it). Everything that I kept inside of me, everything that I suffered in silence is now out in the open.
I was able to confide in someone and trust again. And, I’m happier than I’ve felt in months.
Everything happens for a reason and I hope to remind myself of all of this in years to come.
Don’t ever lose sight of hope and what’s yet to come. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and changes are on the horizon.
I cannot stress enough how important it is to #takecareofyourself and always remember it’s ok to not be ok. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.