This week has been a bit of a toughie for me. I have been really struggling to walk, move around, do simple tasks and just be myself. For someone who thrives to work hard and like's ensuring the day is filled to the brim with productivity, this has been a too little hard to manage in my current state.
Last week I gave you a little insight in to my life. 'When Life Gives you Lemons, Make Lemonade.' Sometimes, we have to put making lemonade on hold. Especially when health is a concern.
In a previous blog post I talked about my upcoming womb operation for my endometriosis. And I have now had said operation.
Sadly, I had a few complications whilst in surgery. It was worst than they expected, and instead of just removing the endometriosis (which was extensive), I also had something called 'Adhesiolysis' performed on me, as well as having a large cyst on my ovaries removed.
After the surgery, my blood pressure was incredibly low, I was in unbearable amounts of agony, I'd completely lost my appetite and I was sick a few times.
Because of these complications it meant I couldn't leave the hospital on the day of the surgery (as was planned). I had to stay a few days, which may I add, was awful. I couldn't sleep a wink, I had drains attached to my stomach and my hand, and to be quite honest, I felt like a useless turnip. I wanted nothing more than to go home to my own bed.
Luckily, I was discharged early (two days after the surgery) after speaking with a doctor at the hospital. The nurses suggested that I stay another night or two, but I really didn't want to.
As you can imagine, staying in hospital isn't the most dreamiest of places to be in.
Anyway, I was so incredibly happy to be home. SO SO happy!
Being at home has been a bit of a struggle, however, I have had Joe looking after me. To be honest, it's been kind of sweet that Joe has been so supportive, caring and so attentive... I'm not used to being smothered with love and care (just joking Joseph)!
The things I'm struggling with the most since the surgery is that I'm not able to perform simple tasks or walk around for a long period of time without feeling out of breath and feeling the need to sit down.
One of the hardest tasks was taking a shower, I was almost in tears because I couldn't climb into the bath without Joe's help, once in I couldn't bend my head forward to wash my hair (it was a real struggle believe me). I was also so nervous about getting my wound patches wet (even though they are splash proof) that I was moving around like a lost puppy who had never seen water before. Scared stiff.
Also, Co-Codamol is a real game changer. I've been on this stuff before and boy it is powerful. After five minutes of downing two, I feel like I'm seeing double... that's when I realise I need to put on my specks. Blind problems and Co-Codamol are a no no. How anybody is able to perform a daily task with these in their system is beyond me.
Anyway, I've got two weeks off to get back to normal, my stitches are being removed next Monday and I just need to take each day as it comes.
I'm sorry for this rambly piece of writing. I always feel better when I've expressed myself and got everything noted down. I'm sure you don't need to know every detail of my surgery and progress but it's really helping me deal with things.
And, one last thing, before I attempt to make a cup of tea (we've got new tea-bags and I'm hooked on the stuff). I just wanted to say how thankful and lucky I am. My boyfriend, friends and family have been SO lovely. A special shout out to Nicol, (my best friend from uni, who now lives in Germany), who surprised me with flowers and chocolates on my return home. That was the loveliest surprise I have ever received, so thank you so much for cheering me up.
To be honest, everyone who has sent me a message, left a comment, had a natter on the phone, bought me card or present, thank you so much, it really is appreciated. You are all so lovely, thoughtful and kind-hearted! And, I love you all so much!